As we grow up

I had my first daughter when I was 19. Got married at 5 months along because I was in love, first boyfriend still a virgin and I thought he was everything. The marriage did not last he was on drugs really bad and be so young and dumb I really did not know it then. He died when my Daughter Melinda was 8, and even thou he was not around a lot she was very upset. I never have remarried yet and I am now 50 years old. I dated a few different ones along the way, but went no where.